Anyone who knows me, knows my obsession with the order of life.
You know what I am talking about... You go to college, meet a boy, marry him, buy a house, have a baby (or 3) and live happily ever after.
For the most part we have done just that... with the added step of moving 3000 miles away (and back) as well a K-9 addition.
So all of a sudden, I am pregnant and we aren't anywhere near buying a house! I swore up and down when we moved into this tiny 1-bedroom apartment that this would be our last lease before a mortgage. The next time we moved would be to a permanent address.
It took lots of spiritual reflection and talks with my parents to realize A LOT of people have babies before buying a house. It took even more spiritual reflection for me to except that we too would be one of those couples.
Although it was all quite frustrating, I eventually let go. Let go of the control I was trying to hang on to and gave it to God. I figured, my trust in God had gotten me this far in life, why try to mess with his plan. It would all be okay. We would move into a 2-bedroom this summer to make room for Bebo and hope to buy before his first birthday.
Fast forward 4 months. Rick and I decide it would be a good idea to meet with a mortgage broker to see what we will need to do to qualify... save up more money, get a credit card to increase our credit, etc. Although we have a pretty good amount of money saved up, okay credit and a lot of people who can vouch for our reliability, we were sure he would come back with a list of things we needed to improve to qualify.
We were wrong! Instead, he came back saying we could buy now if we wanted!
Remember that pre-baby post about my house itch back in November? We all know how much I have wanted to buy a house then and now that we are expecting in August, even more so! So looks like instead of apartment hunting we will be HOUSE HUNTING!
I still can't believe this is really happening. Just when I finally let go and accept that the life order for I have for myself might not be the same life order God has planned for me and sure enough everything falls into place perfectly!
Life is GOOD.
2 comments:
so happy I could cry. We could all learn from your experience of letting go for the will of God, and trusting that if we lead our lives in trust, our lives will be led. Wait...I used to be super good with grammar and spelling. Was my forte', however...I'm not sure if led is correct, or is it lead. I digress.
I am proud of you both. You have chosen a good foundation for your marriage, and your parenting. God.
Congratulations! The same thing happened to us, I was just sure we wouldn't be able to buy a house but we've been in our own home for almost a year now! God is good!
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